Why (I Think) I’m Depressed

A friend of mine asked me “What’s making you depressed?”. And I was kinda surprised when I realized I haven’t been asked that question before.  And that’s a big question. A question I have never really answered in its entirety. So what the hell, I’m going to try. Sounds therapeutic.  I think it initially stems…

Pickled Emotions

“Isn’t it funny, we can make a lot of money. Buy a lot of things just to feel a lot of ugly.” – 2009 by Mac Miller After graduating from college, I made a decent amount of money at my first job. I always knew and followed the “money can’t buy happiness” idea, but no…

Depression Has Changed Dave Matthews for Me

If you know me, you’re probably aware that I love Dave Matthews Band. You could even say I’m obsessed.  I’ve been to 51 Dave Matthews shows.  I’ve seen them in 9 Countries, 11 States and 29 different venues.  But I don’t listen to much Dave Matthews anymore.  I Can’t.  I’m afraid to.  Depression and suicidal…

Reflections

Looking into the mirror is a weird thing. The other day I heard that our brains perceive ourselves as being 5 times more attractive in the mirror than we actually are. Fuck. That sucks. So I’m not really a soft 6 on a good day? Yikes. On a more serious note, depression has changed my…

35,000 ft Closer to Happiness

If you haven’t picked up on it, I fly a lot. Between work and pleasure, I’m addicted to traveling now. I took about 180 flights in 2018. I spent more time in a plane than I spent in a car. More time spent in plane and airports than my own bed. But I’ve never truly…