The Beast is Back

The beast is back The more you see it, the easier you are for it to find It’s nothing and everything at the same time But it’s darkness, all darkness No one has seen it It’s inside It attempts to push out your insides Making room for its infinitely expanding self Will I survive it?…

The Beast Inside Me

There is a beast that follows me At times so small you can barely see At times so big it’s all I can see At light he gives me cease At night he steals peace Thoughts run wild and free The opposite of me Thoughts strangle and hold back I just wanna sit in the…

How Did I Get Here Again?

Having a friend going through similar mental health issues has been reassuring for me on so many levels. It helps me think through my mental process, gain new perspective and keep stepping forward. Below, they have beautifully described what it’s like to fear the present. I can relate to this on so many level. I’m…

The Numbness of Depression

This depression has created a numbness in my mind. Food doesn’t taste as good, alcohol and drugs don’t feel as good, emotional pain doesn’t hurt as bad and my good and bad days feel more or less the same. I miss the highs and lows. The bad days were what made the great days feel…